Don’t put me in a cage and try to categorise what I am about to say. This ain’t a poem or speech. It’s just a piece, simply me pouring my heart out.
Going back to the first time I saw you,
I ask myself: baby girl what did you see?
I guess my eyesight had forsaken me.
My judgements of you had been blinded by what I was feeling,
The unexplainable emotions and the overwhelming butterflies that only made me blush.
The “I am only about you girl” texts sent in the mist of me rushing to my seven o’clock class, standing in long queues at Xerox, then eventually during lunch.
I guess love is blind, but how could that be if the heart has no eyes?
Or is it that the mind is so paranoid; that it thinks that every Prince is nice?
I mean I had to match the midnight texts with what was being presented before me.
The vacant space had to have a fitting piece for the puzzle to be complete right?
Right! There is no difference between salt and sugar-the local taxi and an uber,
Just like there was no difference between your mistakes and faults.
Slowly I got into the trend of acceptance and reasoning.
Reasoning? Well that’s just me going easy on myself and not wanting to say stupidity,
Because with your words logic was eliminated, the truth was rejected.
Reality just had to be thrown as far as possible because you had no flaws,
My guy, you were god, your wish was my commend.
Even though you never gave me a set of rules, I knew my 10 commandments;
I shall not have no other boyfriend other than you,
I shall not have an image in my gallery with any other man, for you are a jealous boyfriend and you will punish our children because of their mother’s misbehaviour.
I shall not tell the heart-breaking things you get me through to a living soul.
I shall not kill what we have.
I shall tell you where am I going and with whom am I leaving with.
I shall tolerate your mood swing like you are the one having her periods.
When you do not tell me something, I shall not ask.
I shall not go through your phone.
I shall forgive your bullshit seven times seventy times.
And finally, I shall support your dreams when though you shatter mine.
My guy, I knew them all off by heart like I am waiting for judgement day.
Despite how many times you broke my heart or how many rumours I heard of who you were tapping out there, I still said that I would rather be decapitated than to live without you.
I loved you so I forgave.
Even though I never forgot, it just had to be well with my soul.
I had to learn how to conduct a burial like Asupol,
Be a priest, a preacher man and seal the return of dust to dust, ashes to ashes and let bygones be bygones.
Even though the stories of your dishonesty played at the back of my head like a bioscope,
I had to hold my head up high and smile in every selfie we took.
Yet, I was suffocating, slowly dying from the inside.
Breathing felt like a curse more than it was a blessing.
Waking up was like a punishment from the heavens that were trying to tell me that I should get out of that hell. But what could I see? Everyone had their faults right? Let thou with no sin be the one to cast the first stone right?
All will be well in due time,
The man I fell in love with will be back in no time.
Lol! How stupid, that can only be part of the ninth commandment,
How could I have missed that?
I guess love is more ignorant more that it is blind.